Monday, May 29, 2006
this going 2 be my last post 4 the day...
im not feeling well rite now...
im wearing 2 layers of shirt plus a sweater...
my body heat increases every 2 minutes...
theres an atomic bomb that going 2 explode anytime in my head...
oh my god...
probably i wouldn't come 2 the office 2morrow...
im fucking tired and exhausted...
need 2 sleep...
im out.
We hold in our hearts the sword and the faith
Swelled up from the rain, clouds move like a wraith
Well after all, we'll lie another day
And through it all, we'll find some other way
To carry on through cartilage and fluid
And did you come to stare or wash away the blood?
Well tonight, well tonight
Will it ever come?
Spend the rest of your days rocking out
Just for the dead
Well tonight
Will it ever come?
I can see you awake anytime, in my head
Did we all fall down?
Did we all fall down?
Did we all fall down?
Did we all fall down?
From the lights to the pavement
From the van to the floor
From backstage to the doctor
From the Earth to the morgue, morgue, morgue, morgue
Well tonight
Will it ever come?
Spend the rest of your days rocking out
Just for the dead
Well tonight
Will it ever come?
I can see you awake anytime in my head
All fall down
Well after all...
~~~
this song is called desert song from my chemical romance... this is from their life compilation disc, life on the murder scene...
huh... basically i was profound 2 hear this because of its title... the first impression after i've listened 2 it was 'aaaaarGGGGHhhh!'... emo rite? this song kinda similar with the used's on my own... huh song that makes you wanna cry and shout!
long live me.
~FIN
so, what is cenotaph?
~this is my memoir! listen and shout!
one movie to rule them all.
sounds provoking? screw u... heheh.
lets see why am i interested in talking abt this motion pix? honestly though, im not a big fan of indie films (bcause its kinda hard 2 find these kind of movies anyway)... i was moved 2 post this because of the article that i read abt dr. rais yatim, the profoundly-soft spoken minister that when he watched the last communist on a 'special screening' after banning it, he told that the movie does not up to his standards... by the words of nst, it is amatuer, boring etc.... basically, by our words, the movie just plain sux...~
okay... im not trying 2 condemn d movie whatsoever because as you'll know, the movie was initally banned by the arts ministry... and 2 remind, d movie was never been watched by malaysians(except 4 outsiders & the editing crew lah)... what point i should condemn it? hahaha...
this is something interesting because presently, the censorship board in malaysia was posted to view and cuts all the bad stuff in a movie... but 4 this case, the movie got green lights by the board to be shown to the masses without any single cuts... then, suddenly it got banned by the arts ministry...whoa!!! i assume that there are 2 censorship boards in our less-than-perfect movie industry after all eh? the original board should just be made redundant...
irony is it? a story that glorifies the head malaysian communist secretary, chin peng was blocked from the silver screen but (the nicest part), chin peng's autobiography roams freely at bookstores' shelves... whoa, i said whoa!!!
basically, 4 us communism is rather bad because of their weird idealogy and also because of the chaos they brought ere... i haven't been born yet that time so i dunno how it feels... but, <-(anti-climax) as much say abt their idealogy, we also has diplomatic relations with communist countries like china or cuba... i see communism as something normal in this world because as long as they dont hijack a 747 and hit our towers, they're fine... prior 2 republic and democratic countries, we shouldn't fear with communists because we know what 2 choose rite?... except, i only dislike them because of their habits of banning films in their country... hrmmm??????
the movie will not able to promote communism ere again(its a documentary rite?)... only if it does, then amir muhammad (d director) just won an oscar... like duh~
~FIN
so,what is cenotaph?
~i wonder is there a cenotaph 4 che guevara?
huuh.. its kinda late and sort of a cliche 2 be talking abt this.
but what de heck? man! no one going to live without any frens!!!okay let me kinda summarize what im going 2 say...
lets see wat is the true meaning of friendship?lotta ppl say that whenever u live in any part of the world,there's always a bunch of ppl kinda let u feel warm & blessed,& there's also a bunch of fools that r just a pain in d arse...
ok... basically i kinda haf plenty of frens, but which one are my 'true' frens?
hmm i going 2 say my high skool buddies... dude, although they kinda crazy but i luv them man!!! we've been doing stuffs 2gether (lots of bad and good stuff, aite)... & i am damn sure if i lose 1 of them, im not going 2 live by the same anymore... hopefully we all will still be frens until the end of our lives... huhu...
but, some1 told me that college frens lasts longer than normal frens... hmmm im not going 2 comment anything abt dis bcause im not an avid fan of college frens... not that i dun like them but i dunno if they were like my true frens? huuh maybe some of them r just fine but who knows what will happen in the future... just let me describe college frens in these words... classmates, assignments, roomates, & backstabers... huh? so profound of me. i beg ur pardon.
this post is triggered when my mates were having a burfday feast (consists of a tray of eggs) 2 'kepeng'. huh im not invited eh? damn!!!
~FIN
so, what is cenotaph?
~want me 2 describe it? i'll plagiarize a novel 2 let u know. sue me!!!
want me 2 describe an office? S.U.X!shit my brain r going 2 pop out in a matter of seconds man!!!
i know dat the $$$ propaganda cube in my visions r melting...
i cant resist d temptation of field working!!!
i wanna get out from ere!!!
now i knoe y all office lads don the 'ass-like' face after 5 pm. ok.
im adapting 2 it by now...
well how sux is my office? 1st, there are too many veterans (that means less play), 2nd although im writing in english, my oral english r terrible!!! (lots of shit words!), 3rd, i guess my office mates doesn't know the word interact (honestly though, there r only 4 malays in my department... im not into cross-culture interaction... huhu), 4th, im doing the same thing over and over again, 4th, the internet connection r limited (thank god the blog site wasnt blocked!!!), 5th, its all about information system!!! (praise the i.s. students folks, they r all genius!!!)
so thats it. boycott office!!! spread the words...
~FIN
so, what is cenotaph?
~cenotaph is not an office!!!
Saturday, May 13, 2006
WOOHOOO
its the time of the sem again!!! we're on leave 4 abt 2 months...
after lots of struggle & conflict in this semester, im going 2 shine ( kat cuti jer)
ok lets see, im working part time @ standard chartered rite now...
kinda bored but the job pays good money my man...
huhu kinda interact more thios time
no time 2 write sumore see ya!
